The mom I might
never get to know
My 16th
birthday was coming up fast, only a few more days. I was so excited to be able to
drive on my own, that was the only thing I wanted this year.
Every
other birthday, the one and only thing I wanted was to get to know who my birth
mother was. The last time I saw her I was eight years old, but the last couple
of years I didn’t care about finding her. I just decided to forgive and forget.
A
couple days before my 16th birthday party I got a message on Facebook.
I didn’t know who the guy was; but as I read it shock took over my entire body,
I was still on the outside but extremely shaken on the inside. The message
started out with him introducing himself, and him telling me that he was a friend
of my birth mother. At first I didn’t understand what he was saying, but then
he told me her name; Carmen. That’s when I began crying, I felt nauseous. He
said that she wanted to get in touch with me and see how I was doing. My
emotions were so messed up, I was so happy but also nervous. This person I didn’t
even know, my birth mother, wants to get to know me. It was so strange to me.
A few days later my dad went with me to go
have lunch with her. We went to Mio Sushi, one of my favorite places to go for
lunch. When I saw her I had this exciting, butterfly feeling in my stomach, I
had always dreamed of what this would be like. As we sat there eating I wasn’t sure what to
say to her, after all I didn’t even really know who she was. She and my dad talked
for a while, and I just sat there and listened.
She
was a stranger to me, and partly still is. It will take along time to get to
know a person that I hardly remember ever meeting. She is more just a friend
than a mom to me; she will never be a parent to me. She waited too long.
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